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Swinburne, Algernon. Poems and Ballads, First Series. The Poems of Algernon Charles Swinburne. 6 vols. London: Chatto, 1904. 1: xxxi-296.
Poems and Ballads, First Series
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ANACTORIA
τίνος αὖ τὺ πειθοῖ |
μὰψ σαγηνεύσας φιλόταταϗ |
My life is bitter with thy love; thine eyes |
Blind me, thy tresses burn me, thy sharp sighs |
Divide my flesh and spirit with soft sound, |
And my blood strengthens, and my veins abound. |
I pray thee sigh not, speak not, draw not breath; | 5 |
Let life burn down, and dream it is not death. |
I would the sea had hidden us, the fire |
(Wilt thou fear that, and fear not my desire?) |
Severed the bones that bleach, the flesh that cleaves, |
And let our sifted ashes drop like leaves. | 10 |
I feel thy blood against my blood: my pain |
Pains thee, and lips bruise lips, and vein stings vein. |
Let fruit be crushed on fruit, let flower on flower, |
Breast kindle breast, and either burn one hour. |
Why wilt thou follow lesser loves? are thine | 15 |
Too weak to bear these hands and lips of mine? |
I charge thee for my life's sake, O too sweet |
To crush love with thy cruel faultless feet, |
I charge thee keep thy lips from hers or his, |
Sweetest, till theirs be sweeter than my kiss: | 20 |
Lest I too lure, a swallow for a dove, |
Erotion or Erinna to my love. |
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I would my love could kill thee; I am satiated |
With seeing the live, and fain would have thee dead. |
I would earth had thy body as fruit to eat, | 25 |
And no mouth but some serpent's found thee sweet. |
I would find grievous ways to have thee slain, |
Intense device, and superflux of pain; |
Vex thee with amorous agonies, and shake |
Life at thy lips, and leave it there to ache; | 30 |
Strain out thy soul with pangs too soft to kill, |
Intolerable interludes, and infinite ill; |
Relapse and reluctation of the breath, |
Dumb tunes and shuddering semitones of death. |
I am weary of all thy words and soft strange ways, | 35 |
Of all love's fiery nights and all his days, |
And all the broken kisses salt as brine |
That shuddering lips make moist with waterish wine, |
And eyes the bluer for all those hidden hours |
That pleasure fills with tears and feeds from flowers, | 40 |
Fierce at the heart with fire that half comes through, |
But all the flowerlike white stained round with blue; |
The fervent underlid, and that above |
Lifted with laughter or abashed with love; |
Thine amorous girdle, full of thee and fair, | 45 |
And leavings of the lilies in thine hair. |
Yea, all sweet words of thine and all thy ways, |
And all the fruit of nights and flower of days, |
And stinging lips wherein the hot sweet brine |
That Love was born of burns and foams like wine, | 50 |
And eyes insatiable of amorous hours, |
Fervent as fire and delicate as flowers, |
Coloured like night at heart, but cloven through |
Like night with flame, dyed round like night with blue, |
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Clothed with deep eyelids under and above — | 55 |
Yea, all thy beauty sickens me with love; |
Thy girdle empty of thee and now not fair, |
And ruinous lilies in thy languid hair. |
Ah, take no thought for Love's sake; shall this be, |
And she who loves thy lover not love thee? | 60 |
Sweet soul, sweet mouth of all that laughs and lives, |
Mine is she, very mine; and she forgives. |
For I beheld in sleep the light that is |
In her high place in Paphos, heard the kiss |
Of body and soul that mix with eager tears | 65 |
And laughter stinging through the eyes and ears; |
Saw Love, as burning flame from crown to feet, |
Imperishable, upon her storied seat; |
Clear eyelids lifted toward the north and south, |
A mind of many colours, and a mouth | 70 |
Of many tunes and kisses; and she bowed, |
With all her subtle face laughing aloud, |
Bowed down upon me, saying, "Who doth thee wrong, |
Sappho?" but thou — thy body is the song, |
Thy mouth the music; thou art more than I, | 75 |
Though my voice die not till the whole world die; |
Though men that hear it madden; though love weep, |
Though nature change, though shame be charmed to sleep. |
Ah, wilt thou slay me lest I kiss thee dead? |
Yet the queen laughed from her sweet heart and said: | 80 |
"Even she that flies shall follow for thy sake, |
And she shall give thee gifts that would not take, |
Shall kiss that would not kiss thee" (yea, kiss me) |
"When thou wouldst not" — when I would not kiss thee! |
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Ah, more to me than all men as thou art, | 85 |
Shall not my songs assuage her at the heart? |
Ah, sweet to me as life seems sweet to death, |
Why should her wrath fill thee with fearful breath? |
Nay, sweet, for is she God alone? hath she |
Made earth and all the centuries of the sea, | 90 |
Taught the sun ways to travel, woven most fine |
The moonbeams, shed the starbeams forth as wine, |
Bound with her myrtles, beaten with her rods, |
The young men and the maidens and the gods? |
Have we not lips to love with, eyes for tears, | 95 |
And summer and flower of women and of years? |
Stars for the foot of morning, and for noon |
Sunlight, and exaltation of the moon; |
Waters that answer waters, fields that wear |
Lilies, and languor of the Lesbian air? | 100 |
Beyond those flying feet of fluttered doves, |
Are there not other gods for other loves? |
Yea, though she scourge thee, sweetest, for my sake, |
Blossom not thorns and flowers not blood should break. |
Ah that my lips were tuneless lips, but pressed | 105 |
To the bruised blossom of thy scourged white breast! |
Ah that my mouth for Muses' milk were fed |
On the sweet blood thy sweet small wounds had bled! |
That with my tongue I felt them, and could taste |
The faint flakes from thy bosom to the waist! | 110 |
That I could drink thy veins as wine, and eat |
Thy breasts like honey! that from face to feet |
Thy body were abolished and consumed, |
And in my flesh thy very flesh entombed! |
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Ah, ah, thy beauty! like a beast it bites, | 115 |
Stings like an adder, like an arrow smites. |
Ah sweet, and sweet again, and seven times sweet, |
The paces and the pauses of thy feet! |
Ah sweeter than all sleep or summer air |
The fallen fillets fragrant from thine hair! | 120 |
Yea, though their alien kisses do me wrong, |
Sweeter thy lips than mine with all their song; |
Thy shoulders whiter than a fleece of white, |
And flower-sweet fingers, good to bruise or bite |
As honeycomb of the inmost honey-cells, | 125 |
With almond-shaped and roseleaf-coloured shells |
And blood like purple blossom at the tips |
Quivering; and pain made perfect in thy lips |
For my sake when I hurt thee; O that I |
Durst crush thee out of life with love, and die, | 130 |
Die of thy pain and my delight, and be |
Mixed with thy blood and molten into thee! |
Would I not plague thee dying overmuch? |
Would I not hurt thee perfectly? not touch |
Thy pores of sense with torture, and make bright | 135 |
Thine eyes with bloodlike tears and grievous light? |
Strike pang from pang as note is struck from note, |
Catch the sob's middle music in thy throat, |
Take thy limbs living, and new-mould with these |
A lyre of many faultless agonies? | 140 |
Feed thee with fever and famine and fine drouth, |
With perfect pangs convulse thy perfect mouth, |
Make thy life shudder in thee and burn afresh, |
And wring thy very spirit through the flesh? |
Cruel? but love makes all that love him well | 145 |
As wise as heaven and crueller than hell. |
Me hath love made more bitter toward thee |
Than death toward man; but were I made as he |
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Who hath made all things to break them one by one, |
If my feet trod upon the stars and sun | 150 |
And souls of men as his have alway trod, |
God knows I might be crueller than God. |
For who shall change with prayers or thanksgivings |
The mystery of the cruelty of things? |
Or say what God above all gods and years | 155 |
With offering and blood-sacrifice of tears, |
With lamentation from strange lands, from graves |
Where the snake pastures, from scarred mouths of slaves, |
From prison, and from plunging prows of ships |
Through flamelike foam of the sea's closing lips — | 160 |
With thwartings of strange signs, and wind-blown hair |
Of comets, desolating the dim air, |
When darkness is made fast with seals and bars, |
And fierce reluctance of disastrous stars, |
Eclipse, and sound of shaken hills, and wings | 165 |
Darkening, and blind inexpiable things — |
With sorrow of labouring moons, and altering light |
And travail of the planets of the night, |
And weeping of the weary Pleiads seven, |
Feeds the mute melancholy lust of heaven? | 170 |
Is not his incense bitterness, his meat |
Murder? his hidden face and iron feet |
Hath not man known, and felt them on their way |
Threaten and trample all things and every day? |
Hath he not sent us hunger? who hath cursed | 175 |
Spirit and flesh with longing? filled with thirst |
Their lips who cried unto him? who bade exceed |
The fervid will, fall short the feeble deed, |
Bade sink the spirit and the flesh aspire, |
Pain animate the dust of dead desire, | 180 |
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And life yield up her flower to violent fate? |
Him would I reach, him smite, him desecrate, |
Pierce the cold lips of God with human breath, |
And mix his immortality with death. |
Why hath he made us? what had all we done | 185 |
That we should live and loathe the sterile sun, |
And with the moon wax paler as she wanes, |
And pulse by pulse feel time grow through our veins? |
Thee too the years shall cover; thou shalt be |
As the rose born of one same blood with thee, | 190 |
As a song sung, as a word said, and fall |
Flower-wise, and be not any more at all, |
Nor any memory of thee anywhere; |
For never Muse has bound above thine hair |
The high Pierian flower whose graft outgrows | 195 |
All summer kinship of the mortal rose |
And colour of deciduous days, nor shed |
Reflex and flush of heaven about thine head, |
Nor reddened brows made pale by floral grief |
With splendid shadow from that lordlier leaf. | 200 |
Yea, thou shalt be forgotten like spilt wine, |
Except these kisses of my lips on thine |
Brand them with immortality; but me — |
Men shall not see bright fire nor hear the sea, |
Nor mix their hearts with music, nor behold | 205 |
Cast forth of heaven, with feet of awful gold |
And plumeless wings that make the bright air blind, |
Lightning, with thunder for a hound behind |
Hunting through fields unfurrowed and unsown, |
But in the light and laughter, in the moan | 210 |
And music, and in grasp of lip and hand |
And shudder of water that makes felt on land |
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The immeasurable tremor of all the sea, |
Memories shall mix and metaphors of me. |
Like me shall be the shuddering calm of night, | 215 |
When all the winds of the world for pure delight |
Close lips that quiver and fold up wings that ache; |
When nightingales are louder for love's sake, |
And leaves tremble like lute-strings or like fire; |
Like me the one star swooning with desire | 220 |
Even at the cold lips of the sleepless moon, |
As I at thine; like me the waste white noon, |
Burnt through with barren sunlight; and like me |
The land-stream and the tide-stream in the sea. |
I am sick with time as these with ebb and flow, | 225 |
And by the yearning in my veins I know |
The yearning sound of waters; and mine eyes |
Burn as that beamless fire which fills the skies |
With troubled stars and travailing things of flame; |
And in my heart the grief consuming them | 230 |
Labours, and in my veins the thirst of these, |
And all the summer travail of the trees |
And all the winter sickness; and the earth, |
Filled full with deadly works of death and birth, |
Sore spent with hungry lusts of birth and death, | 235 |
Has pain like mine in her divided breath; |
Her spring of leaves is barren, and her fruit |
Ashes; her boughs are burdened, and her root |
Fibrous and gnarled with poison; underneath |
Serpents have gnawn it through with tortuous teeth | 240 |
Made sharp upon the bones of all the dead, |
And wild birds rend her branches overhead. |
These, woven as raiment for his word and thought, |
These hath God made, and me as these, and wrought |
Song, and hath lit it at my lips; and me | 245 |
Earth shall not gather though she feed on thee. |
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As a shed tear shalt thou be shed; but I — |
Lo, earth may labour, men live long and die, |
Years change and stars, and the high God devise |
New things, and old things wane before his eyes | 250 |
Who wields and wrecks them, being more strong than they — |
But, having made me, me he shall not slay. |
Nor slay nor satiate, like those herds of his |
Who laugh and live a little, and their kiss |
Contents them, and their loves are swift and sweet, | 255 |
And sure death grasps and gains them with slow feet, |
Love they or hate they, strive or bow their knees — |
And all these end; he hath his will of these. |
Yea, but albeit he slay me, hating me — |
Albeit he hide me in the deep dear sea | 260 |
And cover me with cool wan foam, and ease |
This soul of mine as any soul of these, |
And give me water and great sweet waves, and make |
The very sea's name lordlier for my sake, |
The whole sea sweeter — albeit I die indeed | 265 |
And hide myself and sleep and no man heed, |
Of me the high God hath not all his will. |
Blossom of branches, and on each high hill |
Clear air and wind, and under in clamorous vales |
Fierce noises of the fiery nightingales, | 270 |
Buds burning in the sudden spring like fire, |
The wan washed sand and the waves' vain desire, |
Sails seen like blown white flowers at sea, and words |
That bring tears swiftest, and long notes of birds |
Violently singing till the whole world sings — | 275 |
I Sappho shall be one with all these things, |
With all high things for ever; and my face |
Seen once, my songs once heard in a strange place, |
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Cleave to men's lives, and waste the days thereof |
With gladness and much sadness and long love. | 280 |
Yea, they shall say, earth's womb has borne in vain |
New things, and never this best thing again; |
Borne days and men, borne fruits and wars and wine, |
Seasons and songs, but no song more like mine. |
And they shall know me as ye who have known me here, | 285 |
Last year when I loved Atthis, and this year |
When I love thee; and they shall praise me, and say |
"She hath all time as all we have our day, |
Shall she not live and have her will" — even I? |
Yea, though thou diest, I say I shall not die. | 290 |
For these shall give me of their souls, shall give |
Life, and the days and loves wherewith I live, |
Shall quicken me with loving, fill with breath, |
Save me and serve me, strive for me with death. |
Alas, that neither moon nor snow nor dew | 295 |
Nor all cold things can purge me wholly through, |
Assuage me nor allay me nor appease, |
Till supreme sleep shall bring me bloodless ease; |
Till time wax faint in all his periods; |
Till fate undo the bondage of the gods, | 300 |
And lay, to slake and satiate me all through, |
Lotus and Lethe on my lips like dew, |
And shed around and over and under me |
Thick darkness and the insuperable sea. |
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